This is the 400th post. 715 days ago I got myself so up in arms digging in the crates of Single Black Male that I said to myself “I’m gonna start my own blog!” because I had too much to say. And so max-logic was born. In the 1 year, 11 months, and 16 days [...]
This is the 400th post.
715 days ago I got myself so up in arms digging in the crates of Single Black Male that I said to myself “I’m gonna start my own blog!” because I had too much to say. And so max-logic was born.
In the 1 year, 11 months, and 16 days since I started this blog, I’ve given you guys a lot. I’ve made you laugh, I’ve made you think, I’ve made you horny. I’ve given you do‘s, don’ts, and how-to‘s. I’ve schooled you on classic Toronto hip hop and bored you with a post about bottled water. In the 102 weeks since I started this blog, I’ve given you guys everything but the truth.
That’s a bit dramatic, I suppose. It’s not as if I’ve been dishonest with you guys. I freely admit to my foibles, my peccadilloes, my shortcomings and my randomness. I’ve shared stories with you that have made me look like an asshole, a sap, and a nymphomaniac. I’ve been honest with you guys, but I’ve never really told you the truth about anything.
So here’s the truth about today’s post:
30 minutes before I started writing this post I was sitting at my desk bawling my eyes out because I felt like I’d lost the ability to write. I’ve been feeling that way for a while now but I’ve always been able to pull something out at the last minute. But I’d been wracking my brain to find a way to make the 400th post the most epic post ever when it suddenly dawned on me that I had nothing to say. I knew that no matter how long I sat there nothing was coming to me because my writing days were over. And I burst into tears at the thought.
I called Nick to talk me off the ledge during this crying spell. It was the first time in my adult life I’d ever called a friend and given the absolute, unvarnished truth about how I was feeling. And although talking to her helped me, right now I am mortified at the thought of the things I told her.
But the advice she gave me was priceless. That as much as we all need armour, as much as we all wear masks and have e-personas, and filter ourselves, you cannot go through life not ever letting anyone see the real you. Sometimes you have to flip over and expose your soft underbelly and trust that the person you show it to will handle it with care. Living is hard for everyone, and it does you no good to be the person who pretends to have it all together.
So for the next 400 posts on this blog, I hope to be a bit more truthful, however that manifests. Maybe I’ll finally embrace the fact that I love writing, which will free me to be more disciplined about scheduling time to write so that I’ll stop missing days and desperately pleading for guest posts at the last minute. Maybe I’ll challenge myself to dig deeper in my posts, or go back and revisit old posts that I know I could have done a better job of. Maybe I’ll start writing about sex as often as I think about writing about sex.
Maybe I’ll start telling you guys about wack things I currently do in relationships rather than focusing on wack things I’ve done in the past. Maybe I’ll start admitting to some of the freakier things I’ve done in my bedroom rather than hiding them for fear that you guys will judge me.
Actually scratch that one. I already tell you guys allll my sexual business.
This so isn’t the way I wanted my 400th post to be. I wanted it to be an explosive exploration of a topic we’ve never discussed before, or a poignant and funny recollection of memorable posts and comments over the past two years. I wanted it to be provocative and funny and comment worthy. But the truth is that on the eve of the 400th post I’m feeling really emo. And so an emo post you guys will get.
I do have something ignorant planned for tomorrow. Fret not.
So happy 400th post to you and to me. We couldn’t have made it here without each other. So thank you and thank me!
*picture me bowing here*
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Congratulations Max!!! I wasn’t there from the very begin but I’m glad I jumped on this bandwagon. I love this blog. It never fails to make my day. Here’s to 400 more posts!! Keep writing!!
Congratulations.
Congratulations Max! I’m so glad you made it here!!! I coulda been anywhere in the world, but I’m here with you…
(and that’s saying something..)
I love EVERYTHING about you….. (even your filthy mouth)
and here’s to 4,000 more.. *raises champagne flute of ginger ale..*
For a minute, I thought you were calling it quits. Love your writing; I stated as much when I replied to your survey. Look forward to another 400. #tedwilliams
I know! I was about to play some boys 2 men… end of the road and cry
Congrats Maxie! Continue to peel that onion!
Congrats Max! I’m newer to the blogs but yours is definitely one of my fav reads.
Happy 400th post, Maxie!
Congrats for making it here as I know it wasn’t easy the whole way through. I’ve definitely been feeling that I’ve lost the ability to write… though, I’m slowly regaining my inspiration back. When I feel like I’ve lost something that I (claim to) love, I question my entire existence, if I TRULY love it the way I do, and it definitely affects the way I deal with life period (shout-out to your prior post on Monday!). Yeah, I get real deep wit it. Heh.
Anyway, major hugs to you and here’s to 400 more! *flings fabulous shoe-shaped confetti*
Great work Max. Keep going.
Congrats Max!
Congrats!! I love almost all of your blog posts. Keep them coming.
Lol almost all??
Congrats on 400! I just discovered your blog about a month ago and I am hooked! I don’t comment often (I’m gonna do better!) but I do read daily. You must be doing something right if I keep checking back. Lol
Max, I am so proud of you! It takes a real confidant
and somewhat crazyperson to bring the unadulterated truth like you do! I love you and your blog…Congrats!!!Congrats! I love your blog it is a part of my week day routine.
congrats on 400 posts. i think i’ve been blogging for like 3 years and i only have about half of the posts you do. *shrug* but i love your blog.
*raises glass* here’s to another 400 posts.
Congrads to Max.
As a comic book nerd, I would always look forward to big ‘milestone’ issues with the glossy covers. Amazing Spiderman #400. Wolverine #250. I would wait years, just for that months issue.
So we will all wait patiently for that mega 500th post.
Here’s to your 400th post.. *RaisesRedCup*
Congrats LADY!!!!
congrats! i read your blog everyyyyyday usually as I’m having my morning coffee! seriously love your blog!
Whoop!
Wait isn’t 365 blogs suppose to be the benchmark number? Congratulations, though I didn’t know there was room for even MORE honesty..
Yey! Congrats on your 400th post…I have always wondered how you manage to dazzle folks consistently..you have a gift
Thank you for also supporting me the sistahood is alive
A champagne toast to many more *toasting*
Congrats on 400 posts Max…I’m relatively new around these parts and I find your blog quite entertaining. Cheers and here’s to another 400+ posts. I hope to one day get there.
I have a confession. I rarely read blogs. But I read yours. I may miss a week… or two. But I always go back and read the archives. I told you this before and I want you to know that I mean it, you are my favorite blogger. The ability to pour yourself into this blog nearly everyday is commendable (trust lover I will never be interesting enough to reach 400) and if you ever think about quitting I will fly to Toronto and drag your ass back into the game.
here’s to post 402 being about girl on girl sex.
“here’s to post 402 being about girl on girl sex.”
yes please.
I already did the post about the girl-on-girl sex! Where the fuck have you two been?
dont worry @NC17…there are people that live here that wouldn’t even let her THINK about it
*points at self.
Congratulations! I very seldom comment, but I love your blog. I am looking forward to reading 400 more… and more posts from you!
Genuine Congrats Max! I absolutely adore your blog (the only one I read) and will continue to support (and come out from lurking from time to time to comment….lol) as long as you continue to post! Keep your head up and believe in your writing capabilities, as we all do.
It appears you have a wide following from both Canada and the U.S, so you must be doing something right!
P.S – I noticed your long ass nails in your video yesterday! How the hell do you “paint” with those girl! lol
Yay Max – congrats!! I love reading your blog, even when you’re insulting my people (yes, I represent the Exta Regular Gals). You are a BRILLIANT writer – you have a wonderful voice, refreshing honesty and biting humor. Even your “I don’t know what the hell I’m gonna write about” posts are good. Because you’re a good writer. And trust me, I have about a quarter mil worth of education in creative writing so I say this with some authori-tay. Youz da bomb ,byatch!
Oh, and even more proof that you are meant to write – all that angsty I’ve-got-writers-block-but-can-still-come-up-with-1000-words shit is exactly what good writers do. Just write through it.
Congrats Max! I wasn’t there from the beginning either. But I’m glad I jumped in when I did. Keep them coming.
big things max…
big things…
can’t wait.
Congratulations Max …. Big Things Happen Before, During & After My Dear
Cheers to you Love !
Congrats, pimpin! I ain’t mad at ya, I’m glad at ya!
Thank you guys!
p.s. Why the fuck didn’t anyone tell me this is the 401st post??
Salute to you Maxie! This is a wonderful accomplishment!
Congrats Max! Can’t wait to see the next 400 post celebration.
Congrats on making it to 400, and also on being brave enough to display your vulnerability. You’re not expected to be superwoman, so feel free to express exactly how it is that you feel. Your blog is for your benefit as much as, if not more than, that of your readers.