Those of you who follow me or any of your favourite bloggers on twitter have probably seen more than enough tweets about the epicness of our weekend in DC. I promised myself I wasn’t going to write about it (and I’m not) but this post would not be complete if I didn’t share just one story with you.
So at the VSB #threedeez event on Saturday, a group of us were sitting together talking ish when The Ex Factor came on. We all broke into song and of course given the amount of excitement and alcohol involved in the evening, we got pretty animated. This is nothing special or exciting. But what made those few minutes great was when a certain male blogger who is a favourite around these e-streets suddenly yelled out “Yo this part just gets me yo! I just feel it right here (clutches heart) yo!”.
This proclamation had three effects on me:
1. I fucking pissed myself laughing
3. I was tickled by how effing emo this guy is sometimes
3. It gave me the idea for this post
This song has the ability to slay people because the minute we hear it we start to travel back in time…to that one relationship, that one fight, that one time, that one person. It gets us because we start thinking about what we should have said, how we felt, what we wish we had done or didn’t do. We get to wondering asking ourselves why and wondering what could have been .
For me this song is all about Snickers. It takes me back to our second (or was it third? Who can remember anymore?) breakup. Without going into detail, let me say that he did something effed up and I found out about it while we were in a public place. My reaction was probably the closest I’ve ever come to doing something crazy and when I calmed down and tried to talk to him, he refused. And he just walked away. I remember being so stunned that after everything that happened he could just turn his back and stroll off and leave me crying like that. It was the first time I ever felt like he would not always be there for me. So when Lauryn starts wailing “care for me care for me, care for me/i know you care for me/there for me, there for me said you’d be there for me/cry for me, cry for me you said you’d die for me/give to me, give to me why don’t you live for me?” It just…gets me. I’m right back in that spot of being upset about what he did and mad at myself for my initial reaction and bereft by the fact that he won’t talk to me or listen to what I have to say. If I’m not careful I will get choked up at that part of the song. But I’m a G. And we don’t do that, right?
Don’t believe anything you may have heard about me crying when I had to say goodbye to my friends on Sunday. That shit’s not true..
So that’s why this song gets me. Now you watch the video (those of you who can’t watch it can listen along on your ipod…everyone owns this song, right?) and then tell me why it gets to you in the comments.